My Girlfriend (～￣▽￣)～

hi baby !! (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

April is my one and only love, from the day we started talking to today, I will always cherish our time together whether good or bad. We met each other in a discord server and from then on we became friends, eventually I had fallen for another person in that server while me and April were friends and it turns out the girl who was perfect for me was right in front of me. (This may get a bit cheesy so bear with me) I cant really think of any other relationship that I have been in before where I have felt so loved and so cared for, not only that but I constantly feel secure and I don't have to worry about cheating or anything else, I trust April with my heart and my soul. Sure she may say that she isn't perfect or that she makes mistakes but everybody does, nobody can live a life without flaws, I say this as to not sound rude but April isn't perfect either, but I still love each and every one of her flaws, whether she says she's ugly or that her drawing sucks or that she's messed up, I still love her and not because I'm supposed to, but because she has yet to give me a reason to say otherwise. There are so many things that I could say about her, like how wonderful she is or how loving she is, but I want her to see those things only, I will say though I love how she is and I wouldn't want her to change how she acts whatsoever, I love how caring she can be and I love how she sweet talks me, it gives me butterflies every single time. I am beyond glad that I was able to meet her while we are both still so young, I can't wait to live the rest of my life with her surrounded by love and our beautiful children. Every single time I think of her it simply makes my heart beat faster, I replay every conversation and every moment we have and put it on a shelf of lovely memories inside of my head, except I've done that with every memory so far so I guess every memory is lovely, but even the bad ones I still love the most because it still has something to do with my favorite angel in the world. April has had me do things such as write poems and I even have a whole folder in my notes app dedicated to the things that she likes and some of the moments that I cherish the most, those aren't things I've done before but she has made me feel like if I did do it then she wouldn't laugh at me, and she didn't. I am a person who is heavy with emotions and I overthink a ton of things constantly, including the small details that normal people would think mean nothing, but I pay attention because April is someone that I care for and love deeply, everything that she says or does has an impact on me and not because I was diagnosed with autism or anything, but because she means the universe to me. She makes me smile, laugh, love, feel absolutely amazing, and she has helped me with my mental health as well, I no longer feel like I'm constantly being played and I no longer feel like a complete joke. Sure I'm just like every other guy and I have days where I feel like I don't mean a thing to her but she is always there to help me out, and there are times where I feel jealous of her having friends but that isn't because I don't trust her, I just feel like sometimes I might not be her number 1 anymore, but I trust she will always be there to reassure me. April if you're reading this, I want to let you know that I love You, more than the sky, more than the ocean, more than anything I have ever loved before, everything you do makes my heart skip a beat and every little thing means so much more to me than you think it does, you are everything to me and I can't help but love everything about you, I want nothing more than to spend the rest of my days on this world with you and be inside of a big house with children and have gorgeous memories hanging on the wall; I don't want my girlfriend to feel like she can't come to me if she is troubled or I don't want her to feel like I'm someone who would bully her, because on the inside I don't just see the perfectly sculpted soul that I love, I see myself in her too. I love her voice, I love her beauty, I love her laugh, I love her humor, I love her jokes, I love her music taste, I love her style, I love her kindness, I love her compliments, I love our arguments, I love our calls, I love our late night conversations, I love her hair, I love her face, I love her patience, I love her confidence, and I love her. April is the most beautiful, gorgeous, pretty, and adorable girl in the whole universe, I fell in love with her because she healed a heart she never broke, and I never fell in love with her because I was bored. I didn't fall in love with her because I felt alone. I didn't fall in love with her because I wanted to feel a connection again. I fell in love with You because we were talking and I knew one day I wanted to make you permanent in my life. I fell in love with You for every reason I've listed in this. I fell in love with You because for once in this world, someone finally cared about me and wanted to not just give up, and I will never be able to repay that. You know how much I love music, but I would turn it off if it meant hearing your voice, I would rather see your smile than watch the sun rise because to me that is more gorgeous than anything I have seen, I would drop everything out of my hands if it meant holding you for eternity, you are and always will be my true soulmate in this world and I would never purposely ruin our relationship, I can't give my life more time, but I want you to give my time more life, I will always love my special girl.Even if we have our ups and downs, our arguments, our disagreements, or our distance, I will never give you up for anything.

WE R AKIRA (o゜▽゜)o☆

Her favorite Artic Monkeys songs

One night I was speaking to her on the phone and I was stressed about these nightmares I was having because in each of them it ended in me and her drifting apart and each time I woke up crying and shaking, I was telling her I was a screw up and I deserved nothing and right in the middle of me saying these things my phone had died. When it had died I felt like I was useless and I only put problems in her life, so as I was sitting outside I slowly approached the road from the place I was and was considering just letting a car hit me and that maybe she would be better off without me, without someone she should have to worry about. But each time I thought about those messages I saved and every time I remembered those jokes she laughed at, it was almost as if I felt her very hands keeping me from taking what could have been my final steps. I apologize April that I may not be the smartest or most attractive person, but I will do anything to show my love towards you and your soul, I love you more than you can ever imagine and I want nothing more than to spend the rest of my messed up life with you, I never want you to feel disgusted or uncomfortable with me, I want you to know that you have healed me more than people have broke me, you have shown me love and kindness like no other and I have no way to repay you. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you, I cried so so so much when I was going to take those steps, I almost let my past control me until I got those lovely memories of you, and when I got them I instantly told myself that killing myself wouldn't help me in any way, as a matter of fact it would break her heart and I never want that.

I will marry you, let that be a promise.